Wednesday, 14 October 2020

Fear a dictator

No doubt if you grew up early 2000's watching the tv reality show fear factor, you were traumatised as some point in your childhood. The dreadful and stomach churning scenes you would endure, either the contestant violently throwing up after wallowing up sheep guts or nearly plummeting to their death walking down some scaffolding 600 ft in the air. It really put fear on the map. Always at the back of your mind you're thinking 'What sort of crazy people would sign up for this shit?' Of course money and fame was on the agenda for them and an ultimate motive but put that aside still some crazy shit right?

Pointing out that fear runs through every individual more so in some than others, deciding their fate. Fear a dictator. 

Of course fear is vital for human indication of danger and harm, in which we need to respond to such situations. However, when did we allow it to take over every aspect of our lives? When did we allow fear to consume us and decide fate for us?

Unknowingly so many individuals reside with life based off this emotion. 'What if I lose them? I can't lose them, I love them we said forever'  'I have to stick it out in this demeaning job, who else is going to take me on, not like my business venture is going to work anyways?' 'I can't travel there on my own what if something bad happens?' 

Numerous thoughts that wander in our minds, frightening us, stopping us and dictating to us. 

It's fear that leads to the feelings of anxiety, apprehension for what's to come. That swallows us to a pit of darkness and puts life on a standstill. I know I have been there and occasionally still visit. Utterly gruelling to the point you just can no longer breathe, you can't take it anymore. Why are we scared? What's the worst that can happen? 




All of which is inevitable, we need such things to direct us and creates who we are today. 

Death is inevitable. It lingers so callously just waiting for the go ahead. We know it's going to bang on our door one day so why do we allow it to stop us from living the days we have until we hear that bang? 

I'm afraid of dying, we're all afraid. The thought of leaving our loved ones behind, or what will become of me after my body no longer wanders this earth, terrifies you to the point you almost forget death altogether. 

That's where we are wrong. In order to conquer fear, you have to accept. Once you have accepted you can then overcome. Life is so damn short, so why do we live in fear rather than with risks? Live a life on the edge, knowing the worst could be around the corner but you conquered a fear and enjoyed it. Live a life full of stories and experiences. Live a life full of courage. Try, try until you die (morbid but got to be said). You won't know unless you have tried. 

Take control of your fear and drive it towards the path you want rather than allowing fear to lead and control your life. You can't allow fear to strike you down but rather use it as motivation, steering you towards being a better person, to attain your goals and fight for what you want in life. 

Consumption of helpless media which loves to fear monger individuals, almost as if they want to cripple society to brainwash them into their own control. We people need to wake up, we have our own minds, we make our own choices we shouldn't have to believe everything that's thrown at us like gargled vomit and seek knowledge for ourselves. 

Fear running through the vessels of our love lives, clutching onto every aspect obtainable of a person it can, sweeping us into a dark abyss. The fear of losing our partners, our loved ones can become so overwhelming and because of such emotions instead of attaining a healthy relationship you steer them the complete opposite direction. We shouldn't deflect such feelings onto someone, especially someone we love. Reality is we don't belong to people and people don't belong to us. We are own individuals, with our own minds, thoughts, journey and wanting to control that is bang out of order (you need to seek help if you think this acceptable). Constantly having such emotions or thoughts within any relationship can be detrimental. Rather cherish every waking moment of your life with this person, create memories and encounters to live by and go off the now rather than the 'what if?'

Apply this to every situation given in life, forget the what if's and think about the now. 

We can most certainly navigate towards our own path but what is meant for us is meant for us and if it isn't then it isn't. Sometimes our life with a friend or a partner is short lived, but that was how it was supposed to be. In that period of your life it was what you or the other person needed to get through. 

Fear shouldn't dictate who we are or what we become but to live the best life you can possibly live should be. Full of courage, gratitude and love at heart. 


Wednesday, 23 September 2020

Scotland- Edinburgh

A well needed trip to to the Scottish highlands, Edinburgh. After such a horrendous year 2020 has been, with travelling coming to an almost halt wherever you are in the world. It was completely and utterly refreshing to get on a train to another part of the UK and have those travelling excitement rush through your veins once again. It is not quite Bali but Edinburgh itself speaks volumes of majestic and magic, every where you turned you'll come across a compact hidden alley way that will divert you to another striking part of Edinburgh. It was such a pleasure to visit the small but underrated town, such exhilarating, beautiful scenery and people. Not to mention the vast options of vegan restaurants and cafes was overwhelming, really sucked me in with that! 

I can't fault a single minute spent in this wonderful city and it most certainly isn't our last visit either, before leaving we were already planning our return. I thought to not be so selfish and share the joys we had in Edinburgh and places to visit and eat. 

We (me & the hubby) decided to stay in a lovely apartment just outside Edinburgh castle, which we found on Airbnb, with a striking view of the castle from the living area. However, I am sure with a little bit of tapping on the keyboard and rigorous online searching you'll be able to find a few places with similar views. 


1. National Art Gallery

It's a good idea to book your slots before visiting as with new guidelines most places required a booking before visiting. As always Art galleries are always number one on my list of places to visit when exploring a new city or country. I always get a feel of a place through art, and oh boy did I when visiting 'National Galley Scotland' such outstanding pieces! Unfortunately, the national portrait gallery was closed though there were modern art galleries open which also required booking before visiting. 

2. Dean Village 

Dean Village did require some walking from the centre, though we had no issue with this, what better way to explore a place by walking and getting lost ay? This little village is most certainly a hidden treasure, absolutely magical and invigorating to witness and wander through, almost as if you're not wandering through UK but another country alone. 

3. Armchair Books

Not so far from where we were staying, another hidden gem. Holy grails of book store, don't underestimate the amount of paper it holds! Literally lost in a world of novels and stories in the place, bagging myself a couple of Jane Austen books for under a fiver! Feeling as though you were on the set for one of the Harry Potter movies. I must point out, Edinburgh is more or less Harry Potter central, I mean I wasn't fan girling about that at all pshhttt! 


A brightly and bold coloured street, filled with tiny remarkable stores and restaurants a few of which were Harry Potter related. I mean you'd be silly to say 'no' to such a place right?! I absolutely loved walking up and down this street, always getting a sense of welcoming and mystic feelings which drew you back. I have noted below a few stores we visited. 

If you are massive Harry Potter fans like so and unbelievably distraught at the fact you never received that letter to join Hogwarts, then the stores below are for you. 

- The Great Wizard

- Museum Context

5. Edinburgh Castle 

We spent one evening climbing ( I mean climbing stairs) to visit Edinburgh castle, which had a stunning view of the city, it was definitely a moment to soak in and embrace. Though in terms of going into the castle and visiting we didn't do so. However you are still able to visit inside the castle as long as you book beforehand. Something we plan to do when returning on much better circumstances because sis 2020 just ain't the one. 

6. Vennel Steps

Funnily enough this was literally minutes away from where we were staying and we were under the impression we would have to walk miles! Climbing up these stairs you'll be taken back by an impressive view of the castle, instagram worthy. 


1. Holy Cow

We had the pleasure to devour scrumptious burgers from this place on our first day arriving. I can not stress enough how divine these burgers were! I definitely recommend the 'Portabella Mushroom' burger! Their smoothies and milkshakes are lovely too, favourite being the peanut butter and chocolate milkshake. Oh wow just thinking about it is making me want to hop back on the train. 

2. Hula Juice Bar & Healthy Eatery 

If you're looking for somewhere more health orientated this is surely a place to eat in. It's on Victoria Street, bang in central with beautiful views of the colourful street. They have options ranging from Acai bowls to hot poke bowls, such a delight to dine in! 

3. Nova Pizza

As much as I would love to rave tremendously positive things about this place, unfortunately I just can't. I would highly recommend pasta dishes from this petite vegan/vegetarian Italian restaurant, though Pizza's are a definite NO NO. You have to book in advance, which you're then given a slotted time (e.g. 7.30pm-8.30pm) to eat which was a little off putting, not to mention the waitress would also give you a little nudge to hurry!

4. Considerit

Vegan donuts? YES COUNT ME IN! There isn't anywhere really to sit in and eat and with restrictions they only allow one person in at a time to make an order and collect. However, this place hit a high note for me, I couldn't get over how scrumptious they were. Favourite being the triple chocolate donut, though I will point out how sickly chocolatey it is, if that's your cup of tea ;) They also do a range of vegan milkshakes and hot chocolates. 

5. Kalpna 

An Indian vegan restaurant we managed to find for an evening dine in experience. This was undoubtedly different to many Indian restaurants I've been to in the past (and that's been many). Though I just couldn't get into the food here, when I say different it was different for my taste palette. The atmosphere felt as though it was missing something and not sure if it was down to music choice. Overall I wouldn't massively rate it or highly recommend. 

I have also jot a few other places to eat that we unfortunately didn't get to try due to limited bookings, however would recommend booking when planning your trip! 


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